A very short while ago, I received a new and fuller understanding of surrender. Before I tell you about it, let me backtrack a bit.
I used to call surrender the ‘S-word’….I knew surrender was about letting go, and I would even encourage clients to experience this surrender/letting go by getting them to clench a fist until their knuckles turned white, and then open their fingers to release the pressure so they could feel the ease, the sense of peace, which comes with letting go, with surrendering that tension. And all the while my own cellular memory was equating surrender with weakness and powerlessness, with lifetimes of being conquered, defeated, subjugated. I resisted the very idea of letting go because of what I feared it would mean for me.
What dawned on me lately was the huge disconnect between what I was asking my clients to do, and what I was willing to do for my own growth. To them – and to all the wise, generous, loving people who told me that I needed to let go and to whom I could not listen – I apologise absolutely.
So – what happened recently to bring me to such a different space about surrender? It was during this year’s Wesak celebration, when towards the end, I found myself standing in front of Buddha and being bathed in the ocean of his love. Then he leaned forward and oh-so-gently said ‘Surrender.’ What I experienced is almost beyond words….it was as if every cell in my body instantly softened and opened to Love. For the first time in this lifetime. All my resistance gone, vaporised, as if it had never been.
It is a work in progress….living in our 3D/5D world, I don’t always feel this sensation every moment of every day. More and more often, when the resistance resurfaces, I hear this gentle voice reminding me to surrender, and I experience again BEing rock-solid grounded, safe and protected, in a gentle magnificence that can only be Love. I feel truly blessed to be experiencing, living this.
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